working on something special

I was challenged this weekend to put into practice the gratefulness in my heart. I think grateful thoughts, thoughts full of love and gratitude to God...for a second, and then its time to go change the laundry or pick up spilled apple juice and I get stuck in my day to day living thoughts...I don't always invite God into the everyday moments. Last night, I had an epiphany. I will capture those thoughts (this 'epiphany' may not really be too much of a stretch, so many of you have literally numbered on a weekly basis your gratefulness, your blessings on your blog) in some way to make them stick and to make them translate into every moment of my life. I woke this morning determined to watch for and catch, either verbally or visually, the blessings and joy God has hand delivered to my day. Maybe this is something I should be doing on a daily basis, maybe this is something that should be privately journaled...maybe. I have been unprepared lately for the vulnerability I feel in having a blog, especially because my blog posts have been getting increasingly more personal (and now that I have added music to my blog, it is like opening the window shades to my heart). Maybe this gratefulness posting will transition to private, but for now I am going to establish the discipline....posting provides some accountability. I find I need it. I woke this morning with a praise song playing in my head. I saw my boys differently when they came running at me, all tousled and sleepy-eyed. I thought, 'I want to capture that in black and white, then it would look timeless, I want to keep that snapshot in my memory of my boys almost 5 and 3 and a half, and the way they look at me with big loving eyes, I want to thank God for the privilege of being their mom and being at home.' God's blessings surround me every moment, I don't want to miss them or look past them focused on the unimportant. I am determined to see them and post them. ...more to follow.